Do you consider yourself a writing amateur?
Recently, when hit smack in the face with the facts that I don’t have enough time to do what I want to do, someone who loves me very, very much (and raises my children…) suggested that I try to reframe the book as a hobby. Instead of worrying about the nitty-gritty, to think in terms of being an amateur writer, after all I’m not getting paid for it and even if I ever finished my book, the chances are slim.
And I being the rational, unemotional sort, upon hearing such an idea began to…sob. Okay, there was much beer involved but that wasn’t it. This as you can imagine, made him feel horrible which wasn’t my intent, but it was as if I was kicked in the groin. Yes, it hurts on girls too.
He explained that in order for it not to make him crazy, he’s had to see what he does have, kids he loves, a wife who adores him (yeah, I added that), and for the time being, shuffling the kids, making all of their meals, getting them off to school and home, all before I even make an appearance…he knew he had to put aside the writing dream. For now.
He suggested it because he knows how much it pains me to do things in dribs and drabs and was sincerely trying to help. But here’s the thing. I don’t know how to not do something all out. When I thought I was getting heavy, I signed up for a marathon. When I decided I wanted to write, I began a very, very (did I say VERY?) bad James Patterson Meets Jody Foster for a drink and concocts a thriller type of book. But still, it was a novel.
No matter how basic my writing is, I can’t think of it as a hobby. It breaks my heart to do so, and what it came down to was that if I wasn’t good enough for it to be a possibility, then I’d move on to another dream. Life is full of them. I’d consider it something else checked off. First though, I’d have to know I wasn’t good enough. Otherwise, it’d be me just giving up and I couldn’t do that. I can quit a job, but not a dream.
So I was wondering how many of you work your jobs and can be content with writing being a hobby? Or better yet, how do I become a NASCAR fan and just forego the writing altogether?